When. For God's sake

I want to move out NOW! of course to others it's not that bad or I'm just making a problem out of nothing. Both are not accurate. Stop telling me how to feel. Period. If you can't or don't want to see how your actions affect me, no amount of talking is going to help. Yes, of course I contribute to the idea that I need them constantly intruding in my life. I have to leave, not only for you this reason, but I'm tired of feeling like I have no life without y'all. Call it drama, say whatever the hell you want. I don't care anymore, or at least I don't want to. 

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